"Well, I didn't say he'd necessarily be less nervous. He might be more."
It's easier to talk about Billy, to be happy for him and Teddy, or to laugh sympathetically about how nerve-wracking it all must be, than to consider how close they are to being married themselves. For all intents and purposes, they already are - Todd never has any intention of going home, if he's given a choice in the matter, or of going off and dating someone else (the concept frankly sounds ridiculous), and would never dream of leaving Neil. He's perfectly content to spend the rest of eternity here, in the City, with Neil just as they are. Back home, he'd undoubtedly have a wife by now or soon - if he'd built up the courage to talk to a girl long enough - and be thinking of children. Even if things had been different - if Neil were still there - he doubts the thought ever would have occurred to them. With things being as they are, though, he can't really bear to think of home - he'd likely never realize exactly how much the best friend that he'd lost truly meant to him - so he tries to avoid that entire line of thought as much as possible.
☞ fold into the dent of my chest, the crook of my shoulder || backdated to early November-ish
It's easier to talk about Billy, to be happy for him and Teddy, or to laugh sympathetically about how nerve-wracking it all must be, than to consider how close they are to being married themselves. For all intents and purposes, they already are - Todd never has any intention of going home, if he's given a choice in the matter, or of going off and dating someone else (the concept frankly sounds ridiculous), and would never dream of leaving Neil. He's perfectly content to spend the rest of eternity here, in the City, with Neil just as they are. Back home, he'd undoubtedly have a wife by now or soon - if he'd built up the courage to talk to a girl long enough - and be thinking of children. Even if things had been different - if Neil were still there - he doubts the thought ever would have occurred to them. With things being as they are, though, he can't really bear to think of home - he'd likely never realize exactly how much the best friend that he'd lost truly meant to him - so he tries to avoid that entire line of thought as much as possible.