And all the time he's mumbling.

I... well, I never really know what to say when these days come around - really, I have even less of an idea, after everything that's been going on here lately. But... well, in case anyone wanted to say hi, I did want to come on the network and let you know that I'm here.

So, if anyone is out there... well, that's it, really.


[ooc: Fourth wall GO. Don't tell him he's fictional, no duplicates, anything else is golden. AND I LOVE BACKDATING. <3]

I... I really only had one resolution, and it's not new, exactly, but... something I've been-- well, trying to work on.

Um. I always mean to talk more. To talk to more people I don't know, and to talk to people I already know more. It's... [a small, nervous laugh] ...a lot easier to say that than it is to do it, but... it's worth trying, I think.

And that... well, it's actually just part of it. I generally need to be more confident. I need to... to worry less about what other people think; what they think about what I say, or do, or what I write.

Writing, especially. I should second-guess myself less... revising, rewriting, that's okay, but giving up on something I'm writing? I need to do that less. I have been doing it less than I used to, but... I do still have a way to go. I throw out too many things.

[He hesitates, for a moment, gathering his thoughts.]

I just need to believe that I can be good at things. I never used to, not really, at least never good enough for it to be worth anything, but... now, sometimes I do. Sometimes, now, I don't even just think that I can be good at things, I think I am good at them.

... sometimes, anyway, which... is better than never.

[There's a slight pause.]

Neil? I have something, that you can read.

[filtered from Neil]

Hi... um. I'm not sure how many people know this, but Neil's birthday was last weekend. It was during the curse weekend, and, well... he was a bird on his birthday itself, so that... sort of made doing anything difficult.

... anyway, I, uh-- I was wondering if any of his friends would like to come if we do something for it? Maybe this weekend... and if anyone has any ideas on what to do or where... I, uh. I'm not really much good at parties myself, so help would be welcome.

Thank you.


[ooc: At work, tags will be slow / delayed.]