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║ ninth stanza ║ voice

[hand-written / off network; this poem has been deemed a failure, crumpled up and thrown in the garbage]

~~Clawing at our cages~~ ~~cage?~~
~~We rattle the locks~~

~~We claw at the cage~~

Rattling our locks
We claw at the cage
~~Railing against control~~
~~Lashing out~~ ~~We cry out in rage~~
~~That which~~ ~~The City~~

Rattling our locks
As we claw at the cage
We rail and we cry
All the while on stage

Eyes yet unknown witness
Our lives in this place
Beyond the Deities
~~Do they~~ Here and gone without trace

I can't work with rhymes at all

[After the comment, there is a small, angry dash of ink on the paper, a mark made in a moment of frustration. After this, there is no more written on the abused and rejected paper.]

[Voice Post]

It was a little odd having people know so much about me, but... that wasn't such a bad curse. Aside from how crowded it was, of course.

And... I hope some of you got a chance to see people you wanted to, even if it was just a day.

[Filtered to Deities / Unhackable]

Excuse me? I'm... I'm sorry to bother you again, I just... I've been thinking about the deal, for Neil's life? I think... I might want to do it.

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I enjoyed talking to some of them. The ones who seemed to know a lot about me were still nice. I think there was actually only one person who bothered me at all.

That's fantastic! I'm really glad that you got to see him.

Someone bothered you? Oh, dear, what happened? I've heard that some the visitors aren't as polite as others, but I've never met any particularly rude ones myself.

Oh, we had such fun! And it's okay, really--that I'm here, that is. We talked about it, and it's okay, and he hadn't even noticed I was gone! I know that sounds rather bad, as if to say that they didn't care that I was gone, but from what Daddy said, he remembered me being at home with them, too! So that's good, and I'm glad that he and Mother and Alexander haven't all been at home missing me all this time.

Oh, it's alright. I think it just bothered him that he looked like me. I didn't really like it either, but it seemed to make him angry.

No, that's great. It would be horrible for them if you'd just been missing all the time you've been here, and... it's good to know that what I've heard about time stopping is true, at least for most of us. Not that I want to go home, but... I know I'll have to, someday.

Looked like you...? His name didn't happen to be Vince, did it?

It would be, especially just after Alexander had come back home--one of us comes back and the other leaves, wouldn't that be just awful? But...it seems that time doesn't pass there, after all, and that's quite a relief ~~for a number of reasons~~. And as much as I do want to go home, I'd miss all of you terribly if I did, too.

Yeah. That was him.

That would be terrible... I think your family deserves to be whole for a while, after everything that you went through. I'm glad they don't have to go through that, and... I really do hope that you get to go back to them. Even if it does mean that I'll miss you as much as I know I would.

Oh, I met him. And I think I can imagine how he ended up bothering you, too. I had to give him a stern talking-to, myself. But he seemed quite considerate, afterward, so I didn't think much of it, really.

I'm sure I will, someday, when the time is right. Still...we might as well make the best of whatever situation we're in, hm? And there are a lot of good things about the City, too, so...that's all right, too. And I like being here, and having the opportunity to be friends with all of you.

Yeah... I'm pretty sure it was just because he looks like me.

Of course. I guess I understand why so many people are upset about being here, but... if time really does stop, if you'll be able to just pick up your life where it left off? I don't see why they don't just try to enjoy themselves a little while they're here.

Well, that's a ridiculous reason to be impolite to someone else. I'm sure it must be quite unsettling to meet someone that looks exactly like you, but that's still no reason to forget manners.

I suppose it's because it's hard to really accept that time isn't moving there, when it is here. And if someone was in the middle of something very important when they left, and now all this time they have to sit here thinking about it and feeling guilty over leaving in the middle...I can see how that might bother someone.

Well, he seemed a little, uh... "off" anyway. It's alright, and he's gone now anyway.

That's true. I understand that, and... I actually do feel guilty, that I like it so much better here. But, it's not as if we're given a choice about coming here or staying here, so we may as well enjoy it while we can.

That's a nice way of putting it. But yes.

I think that's the best way to looking at it, even if it's not one that everyone can manage. And I also think it's good, in its own way, since--well, it certainly gives one plenty of time to prepare for whatever bad things may be waiting back home, doesn't it?

That's a good thought... I certainly don't mind putting off dealing with things at home for as long as the City lets me. I just hope that I remember everything from the City when I do go home.... there have been so many people I've met and things I've done that really mean a lot to me now. I'm sure it would help to remember them all when I do go back.

Well...Sam didn't forget me, even when he went home. So I think there's a good chance that you will be able to remember the City. ~~And I hope I will, too...~~ Sometimes I think that we were all brought here because we needed to learn something that we couldn't, back home. It'd give a nice purpose to all this, wouldn't it?

It would. I think the City has a different reason for bringing everyone here... to learn something, to get a second chance at something, maybe just to meet people they were somehow supposed to meet and never would have been able to otherwise. But... I think no matter who you are and why you're here, everyone can find something meaningful to take out of the entire experience.

That's wonderfully insightful, Todd. You really do have a way with words, you know! And I think you're exactly right, too.

Really? Um... thank you.

Though, I mean, a lot of it is what you said, too. I can't get that much credit for just agreeing with you.

Yes, but if I go around complimenting myself, I'll sound stuck-up and impolite! But in all seriousness, you do have a knack for phrasing things. And it's a good skill for a poet to have, too, so it's no wonder.

Well, I can get away with complimenting you for coming up with brilliant and insightful meaning behind being thrown into a bizarre alternate dimension.

That seems like a lot more praise than I've really earned. But, thank you.

You can! And when you do, I'm meant to blush and be modest and say that it's just optimism, really, and only sensible.

Oh, I'm sure there's something you've done that I haven't praised you for enough yet--if not this, then something else. Either way, you've certainly earned it.

I don't think so. I mean, I think it says a lot about you that you've given yourself time to sit and actually think about the meaning and possibilities behind being here. Most people seem to just lash out at it, or dismiss it all and complain the entire time they're here. It seems like such a waste. But you've taken the time to think and come up with something really insightful, and given the entire thing a real meaning and purpose. I think it's really impressive.

I certainly haven't earned nearly as much praise as you give me. I'm really not all that special.

Some people see it as a prison, I know, but...well, it's just, Mother and Daddy always told me the importance of looking on the bright side of things, and the last thing they'd want is for me to be miserable here. Or for anyone to be miserable, for that matter. So...oh, all right, I'll stop trying to be modest and just admit that I'm blushing.

Oh, stop that. Yes, you are.

[OOC: And Todd is going to be getting a phone call in a few minutes re: the Neil thing. She's a-figurin' you out, Todd. =( ]

Good. It serves you right for flustering me with compliments all the time.

[ooc: Hahahah yay XD He is... a little transparent. It's his bff T_T]

Yes, but you deserve them!

[OOC: You are in sooooo much trouble, young man.]

Well I happen to think you deserve them more.

[ooc: B-but... it's not permanent~ D: pff XDDD]

Oh. Well, that's perfectly acceptable, then.

[OOC: After the initial WTF DID YOU DOOOOOO, she'll actually sympathize with him. She offered to die in exchange for her kingdom, after all.]

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